Still waters.

SM: "use to lunch with colleagues, but nowadays, i lunch alone... so in a way, more quiet in the head..."

I: "wah why you ljnch alone so cham"

SM: "i choose to lunch alone la... sian la, coz the gals.... ji ji zha zha... and talk abt office things... alamak... give me a break!"

He told me about another déjà vu sighting days before he met/ saw the person (not the same as the déjà vu sighting); including a new colleague. It has been happening more frequently of late.

In solitude. In calm. You will start to see the faces in the masses. And hear the voices in the noise.

The Celestine Prophecy.

I know why you wanted me to read the book.

But, had you known that the words in the book would take me even farther from YOUR path, where you had been waiting, would you still have persuaded me to read it?

Well, who can see the bigger picture? I cannot. Shrug.

The Butterfly Effect.

"Would you choose to erase someone you truly loved from your present, future... and (yourself from) her past, if it was the only way to keep her safe from harm?"

"that would mean you consider yourself, on some level, contributory to that "harm". or perhaps she thinks so too. too complicated for me. maybe for you too. :)"

What if it was not "contributory" per se? Which, actually, would make the decision an easier one to make - nobody wants to bear the burden of blame or guilt.

What if you had nothing to gain - absolving of blame or guilt - by leaving?

What if you had nothing to gain - but everything to lose?

What if you had to lose yourself?

How to find yourself again.

Do you know why it is easier to lose yourself than to find yourself? (Easier still, to find someone else.) Because you cannot see yourself. And that is why, as SF once said, you do not see your own face in dreams; and ghosts are mostly faceless - some believe that a sighting is a projection of the self by the ghost - or at best, shadowy wraiths.

Perhaps, we need a mirror. Or still waters.